Build up of negativity, of drama. The chaos surrounding you. The need. The never ending lack of love, the denial, the futile attempts to drag me down further and further into your realm. You will not have me. I will not let you. You are not me and I am not yours to toy with. I was never yours to play with. You cannot have me. You cannot be my fear companion anymore, not anymore, no longer. No more shall you fill my heart, my body, my mind, my negative spaces. You are not real, you do not own me. You are not my abuser, you do not carry yourself with me and I do not let you be within me anymore. You live freely now, long gone, you have melted away, gone from my mind and body. You are gone.
Inside your powerful, loving heart lies a perfectly aligned spirit to all that is and all that ever was you in the beginning. You in the beginning from the moment you were brought into this human world and taught to think like others think and move like others move.
You were brought into this world not only to become the person you are today but to expand into your own awareness of the person you know inside and not just the conceptualised being that you know on the outer edges of humanity.
You are not who you think you are. You are not even close. You are human and you are soul. You are thinker and you are mind. You are honorable and you are deceitful. You are proud and you are are arrogant. You are thoughtful and you are negligent. You are all things combined and you are nothing.
Yet you hold the opinion that you are unworthy of anything because you chose to be this “thing”, this magnificent creation of your minds work. Its dishonor, its hateful pattern of influence brought only into existence by your vengeance and your hate. You were not what your mother or father thought that “you” were.
And by “you” we mean them. For they meant not to shame you but to only unburden themselves from the fears inside of them and to leave their own disgust inside of you, for their own habits are far to ingrained to be offered up to any angel or power other than their own minds.
It is not just, nor is it helpful to be held and put under this way. Nor is it okay to be left in the care of a parent or person that teaches another person that they are unworthy of love.
To be honest, it is vile and repugnant to be anything less than wholehearted and sane but it is not our judgement to make nor is it yours. It is just how love is in your life at your exact time. There is no heart that is damaged by its doings and goings on’s for it is unchanged in life.
There is just love in its entirety. Love in its truest capacity to form poverty or abundance. Wealth or lack. That is your choice. You see, it is us that comes to you and tells you that you are enough. Not your mother or your father. Not your husband or your wife. Not your love or your partner.
The only voice that you need to listen to is love. That is it. No one else, nothing but love. It is 100% your only tool to growth and glory.
Give everything to God and let love guide you.
There is no other way than to choose to learn what love is. For love is not what you might be thinking it is. It is not all love and light. It is not all happiness and sunshine. It is gritty and it is tough. It is learning to look beyond the outer circumstances of your life and learning to expect more.
To want more. To need more. To ask for more. Because inside of you is a yearning for extreme amounts of money. For wealth and a conscious appreciation of all things deemed ‘unholy’. Unholy because they are brilliant. Unholy because they are so fucking magical, and bring so much grace and choice to your life that you can’t begin to help but need this money.
But what about being seen as inherently a greedy bitch and a snob or a monster? What about people’s very opinions of you? Do you care? Do you even need to know what anyone else perceives to be thinking about you?
No. No, you don’t, and God is here to tell you that you can have whatever it is that you want whenever you want because that is your divine right. That is your birth choice. It is not your soul that needs you to fail. Perhaps it needs your mind to see what it does not really want first before it can truly lead you in the right direction, but soul will uncover your powerful truth when you let it.
Set yourself up to be held and worshipped by your voice and soul so we are able to guide you and want for all of you to grow in such finite ways that you are soon so wealthy we are unstoppable together.